And so it all began....and started all over again.

I am getting angry

2010-09-18T12:44:00.000+02:00

Sunday is electionday in Sweden. Not that i care much, since i am waiting for time to pass by until december, so that i can apply for norwegian citizenship. Alas, i will not vote.

What DOES annoy me is the bullying of the "Sverigedemokraterna" party. Everyone is talking about democracy and everbodys right to express their view. But somehow that does not appear to count for people/parties that does not have the "right" views. They are totally censured by the media who only try to dig up old dirt. Leftwing extremists (hardly any true advocates of civil rights by the way) ruins their public meetings and party activists are beaten up in torturelike forms. But does media care? No. They just keep on telling pepole that the party is evil.

I feel ashamed of being swedish.

Ho Hum.

2010-08-30T14:04:00.000+02:00

Right now, things are a bit...complicated.

No details here, you will have to wait (haha!).

But strangely enough i feel...confident.
My experience with that is not promising at all, but some day it must turn.
Right?

Off to work. See ya !

Just some stuff.

2010-08-22T13:32:00.000+02:00

Added one large and some small new things on the blogg. Good luck hunting.

status

2010-08-18T17:07:00.000+02:00

I live, i tell you. I LIVE !

Just busy working...gaah.

still life

2010-02-21T18:51:00.002+01:00

Well, i am not dead..yet.
But have been severly busy for a very long time now.

Been working for the same company for 11 months now..and just got the contract until the beginning of august. After that it will be..nervous.
But then again..how will they manage without me? ;)

Now that i am settled i feel at ease. Good to be home. Just that steady work that is missing (on a personal level, things can still improve..but then again without steady employment things are much harder).

I just take things as they come :)

What is it about Cliff Burton ?

2009-07-31T20:00:00.005+02:00

Since i am taking the bike to work the weeks that i work afternoons i usally listen to musik on my cellphone. Otherwise it gets quite boring..1,3 miles are boring enough. Takes me about 45-50 minutes (lots of ups and downhill i can tell you that much).

Well, last wednesday i happened to have my playlist "Metallica instrumentals" going. So, when i was on my way home and the song "To Live is to Die" started it just started pouring down...HARD ! And it kept going all the way home..i was really soaked. Well, well...shit happens. I guess the raingods wanted to express their feelings on his untimely death.

So, the next day was was on my steelhorse once again..same playlist as the night before. Got to the same place..once again "To Live is to Die" was on. And then the sky fell down on me....again. Ten times worse than the night before. The rain was down in torrents, thunder was flashing and the wind almost blew me off the road. Totally crazy. (It kept raining the whole evening,and when riding home the wind was so hard that i had too keep pushing downhill because i had the wind against me the whole way home (add rain to that, mind you).)

Even the weather gods pay homage to Cliff Burton.

("To Live is to Die" is the last Metallica song that is credited to Cliff. It is a song the put together with unused riffs he left behind. Quite emotional song, for an instrumental.)

As usual..

2009-05-24T16:20:00.002+02:00

..i always return here when i am beaten down.

But it will pass i guess.

"Voices hard and hollow
Colder than I ever was before.
I'm leaving you pieces
Of love to come for more"

Some updates..

2009-03-06T17:18:00.002+01:00

I have been working quite hard lately....since the end of february things have sped up & for the last two weeks i have been working like a maniac, actually. Even week-ends and overtime. So much that yesterday i had to ask to have the friday off for getting some rest over the weekend. Today they called and told me that they needed me to work saturday & sunday to at least tuesday. Well, it is better than having no work at all. And since it also is good money.....i do not complain ;)

What we all have been waiting for....

2009-01-14T10:03:00.004+01:00

Enough said !

The time has come !

Oh shut up, i am full !!!!

2008-12-26T13:22:00.002+01:00

Christmas = eating..right?
I have been eating like crazy...i think i will go up to the barn and pick up my runningshoes.
Will feel good to break new running-grounds here i Norway..many new roads to discover out here in the backwaters (Brunlanes). So, what will i do until then? Well..eating i guess...and listening to the audiobook-version of Tolkien`s "The Silmarillion"...10 CD-box.
And on sunday the hockey starts again.

Gotta keep myself busy :)

See y`all !

2008-12-14T18:40:00.002+01:00

Well, things are moving slow right now. As expected right before the holidays.
But as always, i am plotting and planning ;)

Got a little gadget from last.fm to the right, for you to enjoy ;)
See y`all !

Some reflections...

2008-12-07T14:54:00.006+01:00

Well, i had it all planned out, didn`t i? Yes, except for one thing.
The one thing that hooked me to Umeå, floorball.
It did not really hit until my last game working for the Dalen Ladies, which i had done for some 2-3 years (not quite sure, actually).
Before the game started they had me come out on the gamefloor to recieve a game-shirt which the whole team had signed and applauded me for my work.
At that point i really did not want to move at all....and still i miss them all immensly (hey, is that the way to write it?). UIK & Malmø FF i can always see on TV when it comes to that, Redhawks have their live-report over the net...but Dalen is a different thing, everyone who worked with them are such a wonderful team. I will go see Dalen`s away-games as often as i can.....but they are the one team that i will really MISS. Actually, i have missed them since even before moving. It just did not hit me before that very day. I wish you all the best girls, and hope to see you often ! It is hard to put words on feelings like these...

Thanks to Jimmy Halldin for the picture !

Working on it, dammit!

2008-12-07T14:27:00.004+01:00

Living in Norway now, been here for about a week. Lots of things to take care of !
So do not expect me to write here to often for some time to come (as if that is possible ;) )

The beast still lives...

Big MAN

2008-09-22T21:40:00.002+02:00

"It's great if you can do it, it doesn't take a lot
Just means you must destroy what sensitivity you've got.
Cos man is spelt big M.A.N. it's the letters of the law
Man is spelt big M.A.N. that's who the law is for
You see there's lots of chances in this land of hope and glory
Try and make your own rules, that's a different story
If you're a man, you'd better act like one
Develop your muscles, use your prick like a gun
Fuck anything that moves, but never pay the price
Steal, fuck, slaughter, that's their advice
Are you man enough? Ask the posters on the walls
Have you got what it takes? Guts and balls?
Keep your myth of manhood, it's been going on too long
A history of slaughter is the proof that it is wrong
Big man, big M.A.N., big man, big M.A.N., big wrong
Big man, big M.A.N., big man, big M.A.N.
Big man, J.O.K.E.
Big man, what a fucking joke"

At last !

2008-08-25T12:12:00.004+02:00

Now it is final...cancelled my contract for my apartment today. In 3 months i must be in Norway..otherwise i have nowhere to live ;)

Now the adventure begins :)

pheeew

2008-08-23T10:13:00.002+02:00

Time sure runs fast !

This week i am signing the paper for the apartment...so by the last of november i will have left Umeå. Been working like a madman for the last 5 weeks... 9,5 hours every day, 5 days a week. But that ended yesterday, and from monday on it is back to normal, at last.

At the end of october i will be resigning from work..and after that only 4 weeks left..hahaha.

I will miss some things (and persons!) up here, but in the long run i am sure that i am doing the right thing. As a i have grown to loathe the place i am working at (or, more precisely the way they (try to) run things), i see no future there.

Am i nervous? Of course i am ! But also damned excited.

News from Norway

2008-07-06T20:58:00.002+02:00

Been here for a week now, and after being around the jobcenters i have been working for a couple of days now. All (4) of them promises that i will get a steady job if i come here in august when the holidays are over. So now i am looking at the practical arrangments...how to get my stuff down here, how to get rid of my present apartment, how to get a new apartment and how to get to work when i am here (since ï have neither a car or a driving licence). But things are moving on...and i have about 2 weeks left to figure it out :)

Take care.

Happy holidays !

2008-06-20T13:32:00.002+02:00

Today it is "midsommarafton" in Sweden (Midsummers eve) so i hope you who reads this will have a very nice day :)

Me, myself i am going to a party at Leffeman`s place.

Take care you all !

And yes, this monday my vacation begins..and this thursday i am on the train home. At last !

Almost there....

2008-06-13T18:14:00.002+02:00

...just one week until the holidays, then another 6 days until i am going home :)

Already now it feels depressing going back to work after the holidays are over. But i am planning on a quick retuen...and staying ! Got some some work to do and some things to discuss..but it feels like i have finally come to a decision. My gut-feeling is that i want to move home as fast as i can, but with that said i can wait for a while also, because my mind is set.

Got 3 weeks at home to solidify my decision. But as of right now....Norway here i come !!!

How the once mighty have fallen...

2008-05-27T20:11:00.003+02:00

Now, what is the goal that dictates your life.
And does that eventual goal in any way limit you ?

Hard question, no doubt, but a very interesting one.

Sometimes i wonder if goals are getting so important to people because it gives them the chance to NOT think about other unpleasant things.

I myself always strive forwards i my own way. Because i know that stagnation is not an option, as it only leads to degeneration and decline. Call it restlessness if you will, i do not mind. But there is always a price to pay.
So, is the price worth it? I really do not know, and since i know no other way i am probably as clueless as you are.

Da svedanja !

??

2008-05-25T22:45:00.003+02:00

How come it is always find myself here when my mind is spinning ?
How come it is always in the face of paranoia ?

As i feel the precence of that old enemy of mine, i just wish i could be gone, away, somewhere else. Someplace empty, someplace tranquil, someplace comforting, someplace warm.

Now this litany is relieving, but is it not releasing..there seems to be none as far as i can see. Being in a state of....void? No, the antis without the pros? No, not really. Just a slip in time and space, a crack in my perception of the world. A long stare at the sight of time passing by reneltlessly in an utterly alien world gone mad. Is this to be? Was this an omen or a flashback? So many questions that race, so much broken communications. The cost of rebellion is indeed high, the scars run as my ramblings goes ever on without getting to the point. Because the ultimate question is really: is there a point at all.

I am not trying to be deep, quite opposite. The more you try to define things with words, the more they slip away and become...banal.
And this is where we all fail.
And i failed utterly here.

Yours sincerely.

Krantz

2008-05-10T19:04:00.007+02:00

It have been official for a while, but i have not had the heart to think or write about it, but here it comes. Isabell Krantz have left Dalen for a two year contract with Pixbo :(

I wish her all the luck in the world there (except in the matches against Dalen of course ;) )

Hope to see you in Dalen later !

Hon väljer att gå till Pixbo
Player profile

Update 27th of May: She have not signed a 2 year contract, but a 1+1...so she maaaay be back next year. I certainly hope so :)

2008-05-08T13:42:00.002+02:00

Lärm - Up to You

"Smoke, get cancer.
Drink, destroy your brains.
One night stands, get herpes.
Straight edge, die in a car accident.
It`s up to you what you choose.
But i don`t want to be a slave"

Evening reflections

2008-05-06T23:49:00.004+02:00

So, here i am again. As always things have not gone my way lately, so instead of crying my heart out here i will try another tactic. You see, dear reader, i was thinking this weekend. I was at a party, i does not matter where or with whom, i suddenly had an insight. It was not a revelation of any sort, it was more like i silently surrendered (to use a word much to dramatical) to the fact that i was transparent. I just did not exist in their world. Their world was so alien to me that just my body was there (barely). I did not feel excluded, i was excluding myself. Big difference. All the things and thoughts i have fed to myself for all these hazy years have left me incapable to communicate in a meaningful way. I do not belong to any world, because i always searched for something that does not exist...but it is not until now that i have realised it. Maybe it was like this during my abusive years? I do not know and it does not matter now anyway.

So, where does my rambling lead? Well, i thirst for a "normal" life....but it always slips out of my grasp. My youth is finally catching up with me. Ground zero is here, please take a seat and watch life go by.

At least in the beginning of May, in Umeå, after work and after midnight.
From me to you, i wish you well and thank you for reading all this.

Black weekend

2008-03-23T11:12:00.003+01:00

Dalen lost both games against Iksu in the endgame and are out for this year. But we will be back !!!!

Redhawks lost for the fourth times against Røgle this season, this time away in the endgame. Even if that loss was VERY painful, all it is not over....if we win against Mora home today so......

IF Fram

2008-03-09T14:51:00.003+01:00

IF Fram have a new homepage....http://www.framfotball.no/

Some breakfast-thoghts...

2008-03-08T10:02:00.003+01:00

Have not heard from Magnus, so i guess that it wil not go to Skellefteå. I hope we win the game today...give them hell, girls !!!

Today i will attend a party at Leffemans place, will be fun :)

Anything with the word "back", especially in a relatively funny way ( i am refering to words now)..

2008-03-02T17:54:00.003+01:00

For a starter. i while playing floorhockey this friday i seems to have strained my back..AGAIN. Not as bad as last time, thank (deity of choice) for THAT. Now i just have problems with sitting for a longer while...better alreday. So, the naprapath again this friday.

Just got home from watching Dalen play against Endre in Gammliahallen, after they lost by 4-2 (2-2 after the second period). A close game, and Dalen tried to take out the keeper after the 16th minute, since Endre had goaled in the 44th minute. Endre then had (if i remember correcty) 3 hot chances to goal, and in the fourth they succeded. The game looked alot like the game against Täby yesterday (also home), two teams that really wanted to win, and there was very much will and less technique. We won against Täby and lost against Endre. Now we MUST beat the crap out of Skellefteå to get to the endgames.
Players to mention: .Isabell Krantz, Maria Bäckström and Anna Renström.

The last (and decisive) game in the series is next saturnday away against Skellefteå. I am seriously thinking about going there. I know their equipment manager, and i mentioned it to him...and he offered himself to talk to the coach to see if i could go with the team-bus. Feels kind of weird to do so, i must confess, if it goes through

Whohoooo !!!!!

2008-02-23T19:31:00.010+01:00

Dalen beat Falun on their Dalarna weekend-tour..after following each other up `til 4-4, in the last period Dalen did no less than 3 goals..thus ending with the result 4-7. Frida Eriksson was responsible for no less than 4 of the goals....great work !!!!

If they beat KAIS Mora tomorrow things will look real good for the end of the series, i am looking forward to their homegames next weekend (more than usual, that is !) :)
Way to go girls !! :)

On the other hand, hockey.
Yesterday i was following Oskarshamn IK against Redhawks through their website.
I was really nervous after the defeat against Rögle in the Skåne-derby last wednesday. Also it was Lasse Pirjtäs first game in 10 months after his surgery.
Well, to keep it short..we made the first goal...but after that the penalties just kept coming in. A complete disaster, 4-2 after the first two periods. Even i began to despair...Then it all happened...we came out as a completely new team.....4-3 and 4-4 followed. I spoke to Madde (fellow Redhawks-supporter) on MSN during the game, and while totally into it i said that if Lasse scored ,or in some way won the game for us, then i would buy his replica-shirt...with name and all.
And as soon as i hade written that; Lasse stole the puck, passed it to Mikko Eloranta who sent it to Ville Nieminen who scored !!!!!!!!!!!
So now a replicaorder have been sent ;)

If you want to follow what happened then watch the last two pages of the gamethread on Redhawks Support forum here as i explain it more (in swedish) there.

Trond Kirkvaag

2008-02-09T23:35:00.000+01:00

...does an awsome imitation of the former weatherman Vidar Theisen on norwegian televisionchannel NRK.

If you are norweigian and lived there in the late 70`s and up to 90`s you just gotta love this !
I confess, that i laughed so hard i almost cried... :)

Trond Kirkvaag, a legend that will live on forever.

Whining a bit (do not worry, it will pass)

2008-02-07T14:05:00.001+01:00

Everything seems to go against me for the time being, which takes a lot (if not even allmost all) of my energy.

One strange thing i have noticed. If things like this would have happened a couple of years ago i would have been totally devastated. Now i just feel kind of sad about it all, and wish it all away.
Is this a good development? Does it mean that i have finally learned to cope with misery, does it mean that i have given up, does it mean that i have gone cold? I really do not know......

Funny stuff

2008-01-22T20:18:00.001+01:00

Some links that i find amusing. Do we find the same things amusing?
Please comment!

http://www.catsthatlooklikehitler.com/cgi-bin/seigmiaow.pl

http://www.stuffmagazine.com/articles/index.aspx?id=1414

http://www.cthulhu.org/

no news yet

2008-01-20T12:01:00.000+01:00

Been away the last days..and have been working (and not to forget that good old laziness of mine)......excuses, excuses, excuses..well well well.

Short (and not very sweet).

But, just working this week, after that i have 3 weeks off.
Going home...more about this later when everything is properly arranged :)

2008-01-06T17:19:00.000+01:00

Decided to get kind of serious with this blogg, after all. But it will not be the usual run-of-the-mill blogg where i tell abut everything that happens in my life, because am sure that it would bore your asses off.
I recently read a book about H.P. Lovecraft....it was written by some french guy whose name i cannot remember. Well, anyway, he wrote that if one should read his (Lovecrafts, not the frenchman, silly;) ) diary, it would say "nothing much happens" most of the time. Just like my life.

So, where does this leave me then ? It means that i will try do deliver snippets of curious information along the way, while also sometimes break in with some real-life obeservations, sarcasms and ironies (Right spelling? Who cares? You understand what i mean;) ) that in many ways seems to be my natural way of communication, that i hope someone will find at least a little bit amusing/interesting/thought-provoking.

You will see, oh yes, you will see alright.

Btw, here is the book i was refering to earlier. Interesting reading indeed:

"Against the World, Against Life"
by Michel Houellebecq (i told you about the name !!!)

Records of 2007.

2008-01-06T08:14:00.000+01:00

This is what i have been listening and/or bought in 2007:

Anna Ternheim: Lovers Dream & more music for psychic lovers
108: A New Beat from a Dead Heart
H.P. Lovecraft Historical Society: A Very Scary Solstice
Mayhem: Ordo ab Chao
Onslaught: Killing Peace
H.P. Lovecraft Historical Society: An Even Scarier Solstice
Amber Asylum: Still Point
Puissance: Grace of God
Call of Cthulhu soundtrack
Summoning: Oath Bound

Yet another quote

2008-01-05T19:30:00.001+01:00

By whom i do not care to mention...since it is of no importance.

"When night falls

she cloaks the world

in impenetrable darkness.

A chill rises

from the soil

and contaminates the air

suddenly...life has new meaning."

So, there you go !

of course

2008-01-04T12:55:00.001+01:00

The last weekend of january:

- UIK plays an indoor football-cup in Væxjø.
- Floorhockey-cup in Umeå.
- Invited to Østersund for a birthdayparty.

Why must everything happen at the same time ?

Quote of the day:

2007-12-28T19:43:00.000+01:00

Today it is swedish by one of the goalies in IBK Dalen, Sara Svensson

"Sophia: Hörde något om att det var "hjärta och lunga" på träningen i onsdags. Vad innebär det?
Sara:Det innebär att Örjan och Lingon kan stå och titta på medan vi springer skiten ur oss…"

I just can say this: "i know the feeling".

And i have a wicked sense of humour ;)

Today is the day

2007-12-24T14:46:00.000+01:00

Merry x-mas/Yule/Solstice etc etc to all of you.

I will spend the day watching movies, eating and drinking.

So, have a happy holiday :)

In the works...

2007-12-23T13:56:00.000+01:00

Just want to say that i have been very busy preparing for the holidays (well, the few days that i have), that is why there have been very little progress here. But like the one who waits for the rising of R`lyeh, you never wait too long ;)

Cthulhu for president 2008 !

2007-12-20T12:30:00.000+01:00

As a devout follower of The Great Old One i cannot let this slip. Join us !
Why vote for a lesser evil ?

"Are you tired of partisan rhetoric and lying, devious executives who can't keep true to what they claimed they would do on the campaign trail? Then come 2008, vote for the one candidate who doesn't flip-flop: The Lord of the Abyss, King of Despair and Master of Carnage, Great Cthulhu.

Cthulhu has one goal: the complete destruction of all existence, and you can be sure he won't cut-and-run until nothing is left. Mission accomplished. Cthulhu supports compromise on a variety of issues.

Abortion? To please the right, Cthulhu supports the nation-wide banning of abortion. However, for those who want their right to choose, a government initiative will be set up: In the place of an abortion Cthulhu will eat your unborn baby. (Note: Baby consumption may be mandatory)
For the war in Iraq? Against it? Cthulhu will lash out with his infinite tendrils and eradicate all life in the Middle-East. The war on terror is won, and we get to bring our troops back home (those that escape before said eradication).

All in all, you can't afford not to vote for Cthulhu. Because if you don't, you'll be the first to be fed to him once he takes power.

Just kidding! We'll all be first. "

Here is Great Cthulhus political platform: http://www.cthulhu.org/cthulhu/positions.html

IÆ! IÆ! Cthulhu f`tagn !

Still alive..

2007-12-16T22:44:00.000+01:00

New computer and stuff..so i have not had the time.

But do not give up on me ;)

Links + some movies

2007-06-28T16:46:00.001+02:00

Got a few new links for you, check them out !

Since i got my money the 26th i bought some movies (yes, i am old-fasioned and do not download).

War of the Worlds: The Spielberg blockbuster after HG Wells famous novel. In short, TRIPODS ROCK!!!

Grave of the Fireflies: Japanese Anime, concidered a classic in the genre.

A Unconvenient Truth: Al Gore speaks about the supposed global warming. Might be interesting.

Requiem from the Darkness 2: Japanese horror/folk anime serie..me likes very much!

The Chronological Donald, vol 2: Donald Duck galore..all episodes between1942 and 1944 (Except Der Führer´s Face and another one)

Blood, the last vampire: Another anime concidered a classic.

The War of the Worlds (1953) American sci-fi, also from the HG Wells book with the same name.

Statistics..

2007-06-16T13:24:00.000+02:00

Since i am both a jock and a nerd i have som dubious plesures. One of them is making statistics of things i own. Todays victims are my dearly beloved records. Todays questions; which decade are most represented?

And the answer is...........

1990´s: 703
2000´s: 400
1980´s: 209
1970´s: 67
1960´s:12

Am i not a fatastically interesting person, or what???

With a discrete sense of irony?

You bet...

Words of Wisdom, part 3

2007-06-15T21:19:00.000+02:00

"When the people of the world all know beauty as beauty, there arises the recognition of ugliness. When they all know the good as good, there arises the recognition of evil."

Lao-Tzu(604-531BC) Chinese Philosopher, Co-founder of Taoism

Confusion..

2007-06-11T21:51:00.000+02:00

I feel perfectly fine living and working in Umeå...but still i am homesick. Umeå is fine but it is not home, i guess :(.

Except for family i have nothing home, but still it draws me...when i am there it feels just so... right. I will have no problem getting me new work either.

In Umeå i have work and sports (which is one of my few hobbies, both playing and watching)..

So i just do not know what to do. If i move i will miss watching UIK & Dalen & Huskies and everything around it SO VERY MUCH !

But in the end, i still do not feel home.

A little insight and a source of inspiration.

2007-06-08T11:09:00.001+02:00

"It all seems very easy, this revolution game
But when you start to really play thing won't be quite the same
Your intellectual theories on how it's going to be
Don't seem to take into account the true reality
Cos the truth of what you're saying, as you sit there sipping beer
Is pain and death and suffering, but of course you wouldn't care.

You're far too much of a man for that, if Mao did it so can you.
What's the fredom of us all against the suffering of a few?
That's the kind of self-deception that killed six million jews
Just the same false logic that all power-mogers use."

I detest communist mentality and ideology.
It took me a lot of years to see the true face of it.

Face it, i really wanted it to be true, but its practise is death.

This little text above is from Crass, the song "Bloody Revolutions", and i think they hit it spot-on. But that does not mean that i take all they have said as absolute truths. I think they said many wise things, but also alot that i do not agree with.

And i sincerely believe that any ideology that demands "teaching" and "deprogramming" of people to show its worth is basically evil.

So, one of the few political entrys of this blogg..i hope it will be a long time until next time.

What have happened to my posts?

2007-05-19T20:17:00.000+02:00

Today all of my posts were gone, a big fuck-up somewhere i guess.

Todays quote:
"How do you tell a communist? Well, it's someone who reads Marx and Lenin. And how do you tell an anti-Communist? It's someone who understands Marx and Lenin"

-Ronald Reagan

Black Sunday

2007-04-29T18:15:00.000+02:00

UIK lost the Women´s Cup final against Arse-nal (sic!). Nothing left to say today :/

http://www.uefa.com/competitions/womencup/news/kind=1/newsid=533034.html

Hey! You!

2007-04-28T21:49:00.000+02:00

Any comments on the new version of this blogg? Don´t be shy!
(Yes, i am talking to YOU Anna! ;))

Today Malmö FF beat the crap out of the plague-rodents of AIK, felt soooo good! 4-0...wonderful... :)

Words of Wisdom, part 2

2007-04-20T23:38:00.000+02:00

"Ikke bør den love å vandre i mørket som ikke har sett natten"

Which translates roughly into english:
"One should not promise to wander in darkness, who have not seen the night"

New playlist

2007-03-30T16:19:00.000+02:00

Puissance: Grace of God

The Misfits: 12 Hits From Hell

Bo Hansson: Sagan om Ringen

Marty Simon: Lexx - The Dark Zone Stories soundtrack

Funeral Mist: Devilry

Baccara: The Original Hits

Crass: Christ - The Album

Anna Ternheim: Separation Road

And yes, i have pre-ordered Annas new EP + i am going to see her live tonight.

2007-02-16T14:59:00.000+01:00

I miss my hometown.

Btw, the house in the middle is where i grew up.

There are always so many things that get in the way, so i never get things done. Please someone push me, will you, before i get tied down. Time is not limitless, you know. And no man is an island.

2007-01-27T22:36:00.000+01:00

“He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.”

- Friedrich Nietzsche

Words of wisdom, and the meaning of Karma.

2006-11-25T13:19:00.000+01:00

"What happens to me is a result of Karma. I have freewill in terms of how I react to what happens to me - how i let it affect me, and what actions i let it inspire. I am the architect of my own destiny - my own karma. What I do now will make me the person I am 5 minutes from now, tomorow, next year, next life. I have full freedom to elevate or degrade myself."

Vic_DiCara - 108

Anna Ternheim concert

2006-11-14T22:54:00.000+01:00

You missed the following songs (not i played order & i maaaay have forgotten a song or two) :

Girl laying down, Today is a good day, Such a lonely soul, Lovers dream, Feels like sand, Tribute to Linn, Wedding song, One to blame, Halfway to fivepoints, To be gone, Better be, I´ll follow you tonight, Bring down like i, A french love.

Encore: Calling Love & Shoreline (of course!).

Great show, if you have the chance; go see her!
I will live on this for a while.....

Oh, i almost forgot. Before the show started they played Johnny Cash´s album "American 5: A Hundred Highways" through the PA...Anna does really have taste..great album. Johnny Cash is a formidable person to be compare with, but Anna pulled it through. Not that they sound anything alike. You get the picture.
Ok, i am tired right now, you know what i mean ;)

A new list

2006-11-08T23:57:00.000+01:00

This is what i have been listening to lately:

Anna Ternheim "Somebody Outside" + the other songs Henrik sent me .

The Cardigans "Super Extra Gravity"

Arcturus "La Masquerade Infernale"

The Misfits "Evilive" + "American Psycho"

Stolen..

2006-10-31T22:39:00.000+01:00

...from Annas blogg, sue me dear ;)

1. Take your nearest book and get page 18, the fourth row..what does it say?
"Senare såg han i den till och med ett begynnade frö till en diffus skyttegravssocialism. Röhm ansågs vara en rå kämpe" Guido Knopp: SS - Ondskans Redskap"

2. Reach out your left arm as far as you can, what do you touch?
My Bed.

3. What was the last you saw on TV?
I watched one of my favorite documentaries on DVD
"The Eruption of Mt.Saint-Helens".

4. Guess without watching, what time it is?
22.45

5. Except for your computer, what does you hear right now?
The sound of me coughing and nothing more.

6.When was the last time you were outdoors, and what did you do then?
Around noon, when i was buying food. Home sick today.

7. What did you watch before you started before doing this survey?
http://www.uikfans.se/forum/

8. Did you dream anything last night? In that case, what?
I was having a fever...so i dreamt very strange dreams..that is all i remember.

10. When was the last time you laughed?
Tonight while watching my turtles Faye-Sibel and Anna.

11. What is on the walls in the room that you are in now?
4 posters: Cecilia Cheung, The Misfits tour poster, Thor beating the crap out of giants and last a poster with the chinese character for "love".

12. Have you seen anything strange lately?
I always manage to see strange things.

13. What do you think of this challenge?
Challenge???

14. Which were the last movie you saw?
Silent Hill (if not the abovementioned documentary counts)

15. If you became a multibillionaire, what would you buy?
A bigger apartment, after that probably too much junk that would force me to buy a bigger apartment..the cycle is endless. Haha.

16. Tell something about yourself that most people do not know.
I am very interested in the weather & weatherforecasts.

17. If you could change ONE thing in the world, without thinking about politics and guilt, what would that be?
Hard one, but i guess that everyone would be happy and free in their place of choice.

18. Do you like to dance?
I do not have it in me.

19. George Bush?
I will not take part in the Bush-bashing of today. Nor do i support him. He is the symbol and the figurehead..the tip of an iceberg.

20-21.What would your children be named, boy and girl.
Sture and Hedvig ( i kid you not).

22. Would you consider living abroad?
I am.

23. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I know you did what you could.

Anna...

2006-10-30T20:54:00.000+01:00

....can be one of the most annoying persons ever, and still being kind of wonderful. Haha, there is something in contradictions. Forza Anna!

An update...

2006-10-24T00:16:00.000+02:00

...will have to wait. Just too much to do.

Probably i will ignore the last month (or refer to it in "flashbacks" so to speak) as i do not have the time to write it all down. Time shall tell.

The hour is late, the rain is falling, autumn is here and GG Allin is still (to my knowledge at least) very much dead. Wether that is a good thing i leave to the experts to find out.

Hahaha where did the part about ole GG come in? Oh crap , i am more tired than i thought..gotta sleep.

I end with a quote...or no..cannot find a good one right now..i think i will pass. There went my intellectual reputation..haha. I shall strike back..moahaha.

*ZZZzzZZzZzzzZzzzzz*

Just some music...

2006-09-12T11:17:00.000+02:00

Samael - Ceremony of Opposites
Mozart (Slovak Philharmonic Orchestra and Chorus) - Requiem
Integrity - Humanity is the Devil
Johnny Cash - American V: A Hundred Highways
GG Allin - Banned in Boston part 1
Lush - Gala
Fabio Frizzi - The Beyond

If you were less like me, i know we would.

2006-09-11T00:15:00.000+02:00

So, my week off is over, back to work again.
But the good thing is that i have ordered the tickets for going away in, two weeks. One less problem.

I have not slept well for the whole week, i hope i can blame that on the full moon. Because this week i am going to get the results of my bloodtests i did last week. "Danger! Danger!" as Steve Irwin would have said..if he were still with us. I find it hard to accept that he is gone.

This sunday it is election-time in sweden, and i have been trying to avoid all the bullshitting and lying..i have decided what to vote for a long time ago (yes, i am a good concerned citizen that votes). What i vote for is not your business...but some seem shocked that i am not a left-winger..haha. Well let me tell you this, i have nothing but contempt for the leftwing-mentality. There is always some other that must do what YOU should do. Leftwing-mentaly drives forth the laziness and "that is not MY concern..it is someone elses job" attitude.

Me, i think that responsibility is a key word. Take responsibility for your actions, for what you say and what you do. Do not hide behind that what seems convenient, do not be afraid of taking the longer path, do not rush forward blindly and missing everything that which is not in your straight ahead view.

Just stop...and think.

Thank you for your attention and good night.

Fabio Frizzi...

2006-09-07T21:45:00.000+02:00

...is an interesting myth:

He is not existing..it is just an nom-de-guerre for Vincenzo Tempera

He is the brother of Fabrizio Frizzi (who seems to be the Ricky Lake of Italy ??)

He IS Fabrizio Frizzi !

But to me he is the composer of one of my absolutly favorite soundtracks ever: The Beyond ( or "E tu vivrai nel terrore... l’aldilà!" as is the original italian title)

It is an old italian psychedelic zombiemovie (not really, but i cannot find another way to describe it..). But that does not prepare anyone for the music...strings, flutes, choires, piano, bass, drums, Mellotrons..Yes you´ve got it..it is progressive & symphonic. But not in the boring self-obsessed way that was common in the 70s.

Nonono, this is a completly different beast. Actually, it is very sinister and scary but also melodic..i loved it when i heard it the first time..and i love it now.
Fabio is a real genious at using repeating themes, but always with a new angle. It never get to musical masturbation, very few and sparse solos. And he never abandons the songs for the instruments andthe sound is smooth and organic. What more can you one ask for?

I remember (well, kind of) about five years ago when i got home from the pub..i fell asleep on the floor when i got home while listening to this highly addictive (as in bloody good, pun intended) piece of music. It took me some years to get hold of the music on CD...at last i found it on a american site for the crazy price of 600 SEK..i did not hesitate for a second since it was an limited edition promo (with the music from The Gates of Hell also on it). Now you can find it on Amazon.com for 15 bucks, but that is another story ;)
One of the few CDs in my collection that i probably never get rid of..and one of the first i would save in case of a fire. It is just such wonderful and different music that gives me a feeling that almost no other record can give me .The only others i can remember right now is:

Mayhem "De Mysteriis Dom Sathanas" (THE Black Metal record if you ask me)

Burzum "Daudi Baldrs" (pagan ambient?)

Bo Hansson "Sagan om ringen/Lord of the Rings" (space-jazz??)

This is autumn music. So now you know.

:(

2006-09-04T11:16:00.000+02:00

http://www.abc.net.au/brisbane/stories/s1732538.htm

R.I.P. Steve..your legacy will never die.

The work you have done will be continued by others..but noone can replace you.

http://www.worldtributes.com/tributes/steveirwin.php

What to say, what to do?

2006-08-25T15:06:00.000+02:00

"The dream had to end
The wish never came true
And the girl
Starts to sing"

(The Cure - Seventeen Seconds)

Perhaps i should remove the last two posts you think?

But i stand for what i feel and think..for good and bad.

Now it is friday..and on sunday is the most important game of year for us. The judgement hour for us, if we want/going to stay in division 1. It seems that i have at last gotten rid of whatever that was infecting my body.
According to the coach i will be in 2 special teams (kick-off and kick-return)..i will do my very best to knock out the lights of everything that comes in my way !!!!!

Otherwise nothing have changed....one more week to work..then one week off. Working two weeks after that..then 3 weeks of. Going to watch soccer..and going home to look for work.

Wish me luck. I need it.

want

2006-08-22T05:47:00.000+02:00

All i wanted was to disappear.

Statement.

2006-08-21T16:12:00.000+02:00

How is wish, that yesterday never happend.

But when thinking back, i realize i was wrong.
I wish that the last two months never happened.

Because almost all that matters to me...have gone away.

But i know this; the old me is dead and gone. And he will never come back no matter what. I know that road now, and i know the price is much more than too high.

I NEVER take anything for granted, i MUST keep marching onwards...Now that i have lost hope, i just have to do without.

Well whatever...i will stop my whining here.

Have a nice day and i hope YOU had a good summer.

2006-08-18T01:17:00.000+02:00

"Listen my friend,

as no one wanted to hear i´m telling you now.

So weak was my hope, so cold the world around,

so strong the calls." (Samael).

Right now, things are a bit heavy....and i do not have much to say. Some things demands a thousand words to be explained..otherwise it will not do .

In my sleep. In my dreams.

2006-08-15T13:55:00.000+02:00

"I just rose up from blackest seas. My eyes were opened so widely. And it´s a shame to end this way. " (Lush)

Nothing much to tell, really. I am getting slowly better..and i am waiting to have vacation for a week. I need rest, and travel somewhere if i can. In late september i have vague plans for taking some real time off...i guess we will have to see what happens.

Well, you get the picture.

None what so ever

2006-08-05T12:05:00.000+02:00

Today can be a good day, i have not slept this good for what seems like weeks. I could tell you why, but i chose not to..for time being. But it does not contain chemical substances ( btw, i hate drugs/pills in all forms..even if they are for headaches only). It has more to to do with mental relief than anything else.

I only hope it continues this way..but jaded as i am, i have not expectations at all. I have learned the hard way not to take anything for granted. I do not want to be a cynic, but it is hard to not think that way. I have to work on that.

If things had been as normal, i would have been in Tyresö now playing football...but that was not to be. But 3 more games to play before the season is over.

Now i have got to get breakfast..i am starving! That is actually a good sign, mind you...at least for me.

Hopefully, can start looking forward now..so perhaps there will be more action here in the future.

No rest for the wicked..and no rest for me.

2006-08-02T00:01:00.000+02:00

To put it short, almost everything have gone downhill since last time. No motivation...i am always tired.

I was at Storsjöyran last weekend..best thing that have happened me the last half year. Met up with old friends. Something happened that made me feel...alive again. If i may be so melodramatic..haha. But seriously..it was really nice. It felt really depressing going home again. Working on monday was really, really, REALLY a challenge. But what to do? Just keep on toiling, and looking forward to going home this autumn.

Things they are a-moving

2006-06-28T22:32:00.000+02:00

First things first: After work i went straight home....got hold of Stefan who came over to pic up the drums and the flags for tonights soccergame between UIK and Hammarby. I had to go to the gym before the game...and did not want to carry it around there.

When i got to the gym it was PACKED...both IBK Dalens men and female team was there. How did i know except for the uniformed dresscode? Well, i thought recognized one of their backs (Helena Marklund). I was not sure...so when i was finised training i just hade to go and ask. And yes, it was her.

Me: Do you not play in Dalen?
Helena: Yes :) *big smile*
Me: Yes, i was sure i had seen you before :) Marklund, right?
Helena: Yes :) *still smiling*.

I do "thumbs up" and go to stretch. I hear her (and probably her teammates) giggle as i go ;) I seem to have brightened up their lives..haha

The UIK game? UIK won 8-0 :) UIK is the best!

Gotta sleep now, up early.

Not dead yet....

2006-06-21T12:58:00.000+02:00

...i have simply had too much to do, Huskies and UIK are really taking all my time when i am not working or sleeping. Now things will calm down the next month..so i might have some time for writing here.

Btw, no vacation for me this summer...i am going home to search for a new job later this year instead.

After all, a good day

2006-03-29T20:24:00.000+02:00

The bad things first, i am not well..but i have to work the nightshift.

The good thing..the police have caught "Hagamannen", the infamous serialrapist.

So my complaints have little weight :)
It feels good to know that he is where he belongs...behind bars! :)

Been a while...

2006-03-28T10:20:00.000+02:00

...so much to do.

Also i have not been all too well either..injuries and things like that. Too much have happened, but few things of importance, really.

I really want spring to be here now.

2006-02-11T11:44:00.000+01:00

Hello, it have been a while since last time.But things happen (and do not happen at the same time!) and and there is not much to do about it. Since last tiem i have managed to get injured during training, getting a new turtle, working & i have tried to make myself busy and not being so much home. Have i succeeded? Well, partially at least.

Where shall i start? Injuries i think. Exactly three weeks ago today i fall during full-contact traing..and injured my knee. The "funny" thing was that it was not during playing....but when i fell and tried to land safely. How typical of me. I could not work for 4 days. And no traing for over 2 weeks. I did go to the hospital for x-ray..and at least the was no fracture. I started traing a little this monday, and i have gotten a lot better since then...but it still aches..so i have to be careful. Hopefully it is gone soon! :)

Now, the turtle story. My new turle is a celebrity ;) They found him under the ice in on eof the rivers north of Umeå a few months ago..he was on the headline in the local newspaper ;) Marianne at Atlantis aquarium suggestet that i should get in touch with Holmsund Naturehistorical Museum (about a mile south of Umeå) to see if the have gotten any turtles that people had given to them. And i got ther famous one ;) Just one problem..i had decided to buy a female...and had alreday given her a name. Faye (after you-know who;) ).
But my friend Anna from Stockholm simply INSISTED that she should be called Sibel.And since she is a very "persuative ;)" person we agreed that Faye-Sibel should be the official name. Then i found out the it was a he..so Faye-Sibel is now offical a transvestite...haha..that is compromise for you !

Also i have found myself a sport to follow when football is off-season: Floorball. Keeps the abstinence away..haha.So i spend some time watchinmg the homegames...it is good to have someting to do..not just training and being home in front of the comp ;)

Now what i have been listening to lately:
Minor Threat: Complete Discography
Marduk: Panzer Division Marduk
Juno Reactor: The Bible of Dreams
Mayhem: De Mysteriis Dom Sathanas
Björk: Medúlla

And offcourse there have been a lot of Jasmin "Blümchen" Wagner !

Until next time, take care.

Words unknown....

2006-01-03T00:43:00.000+01:00

At last the holidays are over. Nothing much have been done, at least nothing of interest. Seldom have an christmas & new year been so genuinely boring. I wish i had slept it all away. I say this, it will not happen again.
Training have also been suffering because of this %/&%/&%/&% !!!

So, right now my life is a void. This blogg reflects that.

A little bit of this and that.

2005-12-12T21:36:00.000+01:00

Working, training, sleeping. Working, training, sleeping. That is my life right now. I had a miserable weekend...you do NOT want to hear about it. And that is a promise.

Still no time to fix the aquarium (or getting a new turtle).

And it is soon Christmas...which for me will be both short and (bitter)sweet.

Just as today´s blogg...at least short..heheheh.

Stay tuned!

A short one...

2005-12-02T15:22:00.000+01:00

It is at last friday...and for the firsttime in a week i have the whole evening to do absolutely nothing...no training. I have started to train with Westerbotten Huskies, the local Football-team. As in American Football.
Working out 5 to 7 times a week..it is really hard and challenging. But that is why i do it. Gotta go, i will be back,

A sudden death in the family.

2005-11-27T21:59:00.000+01:00

My turtle Skade passed away today. I was given her in 1994 i think...but when i moved to Umeå i had not the time, or place, to take care of her...so Andreas and Ankelika took care of her for me. When they broke up, some time ago none of them had the space..so i took her back. Skade was at least 15 years old. So now i will find me another turtle who have no home...but i will never forget Skade. May you rest in peace.

KAROLINA!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-15T20:04:00.000+01:00

Things have not been well in my camp lately..but at least one thing have made me very happy:

Karolina Westberg have decided to play another year with UIK! :) I am SO happy about that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you Karolina!!!!!!! :)

If only Anne Mäkinen would sign now also....chances are that i die of joy ;)

Ordnung must sein! (sic)

2005-11-13T14:20:00.000+01:00

Well, i have not been well, and when one are in pain..writing in a blogg is the last on ones mind.

Still, i have not been inactive, i have done things..like going to Stockholm watching UIK vs Djurgården/Älvsjö in the Swedish-Cup final (thanks for painkillers!). UIK lost, the first (and last) time this season. The way they played they deserved it..it was a pain to watch. But they took the gold in Damallsvenskan, that is what matters :)

More football...now it is Silly Season..and i can get no rest until Karolina Westberg and Anne Mäkinen have signed up for next season. Then i hope to celebrate...please, sign up!!

I hope to be back soon, be well & take care!

cough cough

2005-10-09T00:03:00.000+02:00

UIK beat the crap out of Odjurgården/Djävulen (sic)...many good things today..some which includes Karolina Westberg (who got to play today! :) ) I seen to be rid of my cold at last...so...workout on monday! Damn i have missed it!

I feel a bit...unfocused...gotta relax and put things together. But all in all, a great day :)

a comment....

2005-10-04T17:06:00.000+02:00

Nothing much happens when you are sick....right??

For which i have been blessed!!

2005-09-30T21:40:00.000+02:00

.....LISEN IS BACK! God how i have missed her. First the e-mailreply from Karolina, now this...i am truly a lucky man these days! Nothing much to add, really.

Lift me a hand, i´m just a person.

2005-09-30T14:23:00.000+02:00

THIS SUCKS! Still sick..but had to go downtown. I am going to get lenses...hehe. And picked up my bike. And add to that, that i promised to help Kristoffer (from work) to help moving. Boy am i going to be beat tomorrow, even without the workout.

But as we say in Norrland "he e bara o bit ihop". Roughly translated to "one just have to keep going".

I wonder of there is some finnish blood in me after all...i seem to have Sisu ;)

Oh joy!

2005-09-29T13:48:00.000+02:00

When i got home last night, after work..i found a mail (reply) from Karolina Westberg in my inbox. That was the best thing that have happened to me since i do not know when...a really long time ago.
Thank you Karolina, you are the best! *smiles*

I seems that have gotten a cold...at least a sore throat, so i cannot workout :/
But whatever..right now i am SO happy anyway! And everything else is of no importance whatsoever :)

Wouldn´t you miss me?

2005-09-27T13:12:00.000+02:00

Today i have a splitting headache...only Syd Barrett seems to be able to do something about it. Listening to his best-of album.

See you all.

Zum kotzen!

2005-09-25T19:20:00.000+02:00

So, what have happened..nothing much really. Still got some muscleache from fridays workout ;)

I have been eating pizza..probably for the last time in a VERY long time..just fat, fat, fat and FAT! I feel almost ill.

Going to try to call Sofia..again...have been unsuccessful for 3 weeks. This sucks.

Today is rather short in terms of blogging...back again tomorrow..with vengeance i hope!

smrt za smrt

2005-09-24T23:41:00.000+02:00

SWEDEN WON!!!!!! Beat the crap out of Belo Russia. And other than that i had a great time going back and forth. And Evelina managed to get there too. good company, a good game..ehat else does one need? The only downer was that the photos i took with my cellphone were crap! The pics were too small :/ Somehow i must have changed the settings...damn!
I got some really good pictures of Marklund, Sjögran, Schelin and Lindahl. And also from the game. But it all went down the drain :( Next time i will make sure that it does not happens again!

But, the hour is late and i gotta sleep! But stay tuned for more worldshaking news ;)

Mashed legs, please!

2005-09-23T20:51:00.000+02:00

Todays workout was really good..as you can guess from the title of todays index ;) I really felt i went forward with the training today, great progress!

At work we had a cleaningday = not much production = very relaxed tempo...great!

I had to workout alone, AGAIN! I am getting sick of this. I am seriously thinking about joining the local American Football team (Westerbotten Huskies), to train with them.I take training very serious...either one does train hard, or no at all. Huskies does it 5 times a week..my kind of attitude! I have to see what happens, but it is the most possible solution right now, because this cannot go on!

And i am soooo looking forward to watch UIK again..those who waits for something black and yellow...never waits too long;)

But tomorrow it is Skellefteå, and the national soccerteam...perhaps i see you there ;)

Now i gotta go back to the couch, to rest my tired old bones ;)

Kamerad! Wo herstammt du!? (sic!)

2005-09-22T20:12:00.000+02:00

Gotta get this thing moving. So i will try to at least write something everyday :)
At least you will know that i am alive..hahaha

Some time ago i at last got hold of Blümchens CD "Live in Berlin", the missing link in my collection of albums of freülain Wagner. German euro-techo never goes out of style!

Enough ranting! Listen to Syd Barretts soloalbums, relax. I do that, recomended.

2 more days before going to Skellefteå to watch Sweden - Belorussia. Right now it is me, Anna, Hanne and maaaaaybe Evelina. Looking forward to it very much.

-END OF LINE-

Ai....

2005-09-15T11:07:00.000+02:00

Been a while..again!

I had it updated a couple of days ago, but managed to erase it...how typical of me.

But nothing much have happened since that anyway..except that UIK won with 7-1 over Sunnanå...great game it was! Next weekend i am going away to Skellefteå to watch Swden-Belorussia...that is going to be fun. And today i got my pay...i am rich...for a short while ;)

Gotta go now, i hope to be back soon...to unleash another of my incredible exciting contributions to the internet ;)

This and that.

2005-09-03T17:29:00.000+02:00

Been a while! When i work afternoons i am too beat to write after work..and to sleepy before...Any conclusions? Yes, i gotta get another job!

On the other hand, nothing much have really happened. Well, when i think about it, i spoke to Sofia today.Thas is always a pleasure. I phoned her! That is almost unheard of when it comes to my habits! I have not spoken to her in a month..horrible really. So we decided to make up to it tomorow..i am already looking forward to it :) She really lives too far away! I miss the times when she lived here, but what can i do? I have doen some research on visiting, but the results were really depressing. If i am do not take at least a day off, i have tops 1 ½ days to stay..and two days of travelling. There are very few disadvantages with living in Umeå, but this is certainly a BIG one!!!!!!!! I shall see what i can do, but right now i am looking forward to tomorrow..that is all that matters right now :)

Today was supposed to be a cleaning day, but as you can see (i am here;) ) it is not going too well. Still got some aftermath from fridays workout ;)

And, last but not least, UIK beat the crap out of KIF Örebro on thursday...2-7 speaks for itself really! Go girls, soon the gold is yours!

Minä haluan paljon rahaa!

2005-08-28T21:04:00.000+02:00

Soon work again, but at least i got something done this weekend. Let us start with friday. After work it was workout, it was good..but not as last friday..but then again i did not get a Westberg-shirt either ;)

Friday evening i was home on the couch watching the movie "Der Untergang" while resting my poor body. "Der Untergang" (i assume you know of the movie, it is quite famous) was really good, i have been looking forward for the DVD release for a long time! And at least i got it! I was afraid that my expectations were too high, but i was really blown away! Then again, it is only me who get blown away by a movie about the end of the Third Reich on a friday night ;). Bruno Ganz portrait of Adolf Hitler was genious, and there were no pointed fingers at all..what a relief! After that there was not much to do but sleep, really heavy movie!

Saturnday was quite dull..the only fun that happened was that i spoke Anna Hofwing (formerly playing in UIK) on MSM, nice girl indeed.I was going to Linas birthdayparty. Since i knew that nothing would happen until earliest at 21.00, i decided to watch "Constantine". BAD decision.Not because the movie was bad, au contraire, but afterwords i was tired and had to go to bed. Sorry Lina :/

Now, today?

I got together my my computertable, at last! With the help of Pengan, who also took the old computertable..thanks for that! :)
Well, i guess that was all.

And now for something completly different!

2005-08-24T22:15:00.000+02:00

I had the day off today, great! Woke up early because i had a terrible cramp in my right leg...how typical ;)
So, had good time for breakfast before going to workout, which went quite well...a little bit over par..but what the heck..gotta be like that sometimes to :)

Went home, to check the mail and stuff...and then downtown again to watch UIK vs Mallbacken...i´ve been looking forward to it since..well, last game actually. Offcourse UIK won, 6-1 this time..but it could have been more. BUT, this is important, it was not a game against one goal..Mallbacken at least tried to play, and did not go defensive at all...kudos for that! The worst thing there is when teams back home and creates a meatwall..so boring. Womenfootball is really going forward...much changes and much better since last season.

And most important of all, Odjurgården/Älvsjö beat Malmö FF..which means that UIK is in the lead..soon the gold will be home where it belongs..on Östra Idrottsallén in Umeå!

Enough football for now, i got the movie "Der Untergang" in the mail today...i am really looking forward to see it. I did not get to see it when it was on cinema this spring, so friday will be the day for it...at last! My interest in the second world war only seems to get deeper and deeper for each year. Got LOTS of books and DVDs..some feeble morons thinks that i have right-wing sympathties...oooh, he is interested in that, he be must be a nazi! It is them that are the true nazis. I have nothing but dispise for socialists and communists due to their narrowmindedness. In their little world everyone can think what they want, as long as they think as they do. Embarrassing and hypocritical, to say the least.

End of politics, and todays blogg.

And remember: THINK!

A little better, thank you.

2005-08-23T16:25:00.000+02:00

So, tuesday is over....tuesdays are quite good workdays...not too much to do. And tomorrow i have taken the day off, UIK-Mallbacken...i did not have to...but until monday i thought that i worked afternoons..so i took the day off, but because of reasons of no importance, really, it did not happen. Whatever, a day off is always nice ;) Report on the game will be published tomorrow.

Der Undergang is close! Actually, it will show up on my doorstep tomorrow i hope. I am looking forward to see it, been waiting for a long time. I guess i will see it on friday. But it is so booooooring to watch movies alone..so i do not see as much as i used to do. Loneliness is great? In theory perhaps, but else..? NO WAY! But what can one do?

Yesterday i thought about my friend Lisen, she suddenly disappered...i really miss her even if we were not like eachother at all, quite the opposite..except for our love for Björk. But we got along well anyway, much to our surprise ;) And now she is gone. I still think of her often.
Just like my mother she died, July last year, from cancer..and it still feels unreal not having her around. So much things one takes for granted, that suddenly is not there anymore. I really miss her, rest in peace.

Now i am getting really depressive here, and that aint right. Life is full of good things, one just have got to find them :) Which gives me the opportunity to recommend a book to you all: Benjamin Hoff: Tao of Pooh.
A great introduction the the non-religion of taoism, since taoism is not a religion..it is all..and nothing ;) Check it out, if you have got an open mind!

I guess that was all for now..now it is dinnertime....and no stress at all..just relaxing.

Thank you for you time and interest.

Another week to work....

2005-08-22T18:19:00.000+02:00

I am seldom angry, i can be very irritated, sour, grumpy and be a major pain i the you-know-what, but i am seldom ANGRY. But now i am very close. I have to let off some steam now. Right now there is a discussion in the local newspaper on wether female footballplayers should rely more on their feminity, tighter dresses etc "since then they should get more public interest" That is the most stupid thing i have ever heard!!!!! Either is is football, or it is something else. I do not go to see women, i go to see football that i like. And when i am at it and have the steam up, i am sick and tired of people asking "Who is most goodlooking?", "Which one would you take home from the pub?"WHO CARES?????!!!!!! I do not know any of the players in any of the teams. And i have no desire to seek them up just because the play in a footballteam. On the field they are a team..outside the field they are private persons. I might run into them, and if they are nice to me i am nice to them and everything is ok. But it is nothing i desire/plan/think about doing. Because they are persons, just like you and me with their own lives outside the footballfield. Their looks have absolutely nothing to do with it...even though i am a man..i am not immue. But it is not important. Enough ranting.

So, today was work..and work was..well, work? Work is like cleaning..it is boring, it takes time..but you gotta do it! And it is good when it is done.
So, i took the bus to the gym..well, i hoped to do that! But the bastards had changed to autumntime...The result was that i had to workout without the aid of Andreas (again!!!!), but it went quite well..so i do not complain. walked home afterwards..that is about half a swedish mile. But whatever. No pain, no gain! ;)

Now do i think i have said too much of disinterest to you all..gotta make dinner!

Yes, 2 more things!
First: i was invited to Linas birthdayparty on the 27th...going to be nice..if their animals do not kill me, that is ;)

Second: it looks like i m going out to O´Learys (sportsclub) to watch Iceland - Sweden play (on TV4+, which i do not have at home) on the 28th, and also eat good food...two in one:)

Hey, this is much to disorganized..but i am to lazy to edit it.
See you around, i will try to be more organized next time!

I got a telephonecall.

2005-08-21T17:31:00.000+02:00

I just got a telephonecall from my father (in Norway). He is at the hospital right now. He had an accident at work this summer, that was very close to crushing one of his feet. It seems that the blow made injuries to the flesh, and some of it died..so he had to take it away (the dead flesh, that is). Now he is made ready for a transplant, which will be done this week..It was nice hearing from him, and that everything is going well :)

It really feels like i am too far away from my family, especially in times like these. I am notoriously bad at calling people, even when i know that i should do it. I must really try to better myself!

2005-08-21T15:08:00.000+02:00