How the once mighty have fallen...

Now, what is the goal that dictates your life.
And does that eventual goal in any way limit you ?

Hard question, no doubt, but a very interesting one.

Sometimes i wonder if goals are getting so important to people because it gives them the chance to NOT think about other unpleasant things.

I myself always strive forwards i my own way. Because i know that stagnation is not an option, as it only leads to degeneration and decline. Call it restlessness if you will, i do not mind. But there is always a price to pay.
So, is the price worth it? I really do not know, and since i know no other way i am probably as clueless as you are.

Da svedanja !

??

How come it is always find myself here when my mind is spinning ?
How come it is always in the face of paranoia ?

As i feel the precence of that old enemy of mine, i just wish i could be gone, away, somewhere else. Someplace empty, someplace tranquil, someplace comforting, someplace warm.

Now this litany is relieving, but is it not releasing..there seems to be none as far as i can see. Being in a state of....void? No, the antis without the pros? No, not really. Just a slip in time and space, a crack in my perception of the world. A long stare at the sight of time passing by reneltlessly in an utterly alien world gone mad. Is this to be? Was this an omen or a flashback? So many questions that race, so much broken communications. The cost of rebellion is indeed high, the scars run as my ramblings goes ever on without getting to the point. Because the ultimate question is really: is there a point at all.

I am not trying to be deep, quite opposite. The more you try to define things with words, the more they slip away and become...banal.
And this is where we all fail.
And i failed utterly here.

Yours sincerely.

Krantz

It have been official for a while, but i have not had the heart to think or write about it, but here it comes. Isabell Krantz have left Dalen for a two year contract with Pixbo :(

I wish her all the luck in the world there (except in the matches against Dalen of course ;) )

Hope to see you in Dalen later !

Hon väljer att gå till Pixbo
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Update 27th of May: She have not signed a 2 year contract, but a 1+1...so she maaaay be back next year. I certainly hope so :)

Lärm - Up to You

"Smoke, get cancer.
Drink, destroy your brains.
One night stands, get herpes.
Straight edge, die in a car accident.
It`s up to you what you choose.
But i don`t want to be a slave"

Evening reflections

So, here i am again. As always things have not gone my way lately, so instead of crying my heart out here i will try another tactic. You see, dear reader, i was thinking this weekend. I was at a party, i does not matter where or with whom, i suddenly had an insight. It was not a revelation of any sort, it was more like i silently surrendered (to use a word much to dramatical) to the fact that i was transparent. I just did not exist in their world. Their world was so alien to me that just my body was there (barely). I did not feel excluded, i was excluding myself. Big difference. All the things and thoughts i have fed to myself for all these hazy years have left me incapable to communicate in a meaningful way. I do not belong to any world, because i always searched for something that does not exist...but it is not until now that i have realised it. Maybe it was like this during my abusive years? I do not know and it does not matter now anyway.

So, where does my rambling lead? Well, i thirst for a "normal" life....but it always slips out of my grasp. My youth is finally catching up with me. Ground zero is here, please take a seat and watch life go by.

At least in the beginning of May, in Umeå, after work and after midnight.
From me to you, i wish you well and thank you for reading all this.

Black weekend

Dalen lost both games against Iksu in the endgame and are out for this year. But we will be back !!!!

Redhawks lost for the fourth times against Røgle this season, this time away in the endgame. Even if that loss was VERY painful, all it is not over....if we win against Mora home today so......

IF Fram

IF Fram have a new homepage....http://www.framfotball.no/

Some breakfast-thoghts...

Have not heard from Magnus, so i guess that it wil not go to Skellefteå. I hope we win the game today...give them hell, girls !!!

Today i will attend a party at Leffemans place, will be fun :)

Anything with the word "back", especially in a relatively funny way ( i am refering to words now)..

For a starter. i while playing floorhockey this friday i seems to have strained my back..AGAIN. Not as bad as last time, thank (deity of choice) for THAT. Now i just have problems with sitting for a longer while...better alreday. So, the naprapath again this friday.

Just got home from watching Dalen play against Endre in Gammliahallen, after they lost by 4-2 (2-2 after the second period). A close game, and Dalen tried to take out the keeper after the 16th minute, since Endre had goaled in the 44th minute. Endre then had (if i remember correcty) 3 hot chances to goal, and in the fourth they succeded. The game looked alot like the game against Täby yesterday (also home), two teams that really wanted to win, and there was very much will and less technique. We won against Täby and lost against Endre. Now we MUST beat the crap out of Skellefteå to get to the endgames.
Players to mention: .Isabell Krantz, Maria Bäckström and Anna Renström.


The last (and decisive) game in the series is next saturnday away against Skellefteå. I am seriously thinking about going there. I know their equipment manager, and i mentioned it to him...and he offered himself to talk to the coach to see if i could go with the team-bus. Feels kind of weird to do so, i must confess, if it goes through

Whohoooo !!!!!

Dalen beat Falun on their Dalarna weekend-tour..after following each other up `til 4-4, in the last period Dalen did no less than 3 goals..thus ending with the result 4-7. Frida Eriksson was responsible for no less than 4 of the goals....great work !!!!

If they beat KAIS Mora tomorrow things will look real good for the end of the series, i am looking forward to their homegames next weekend (more than usual, that is !) :)
Way to go girls !! :)


On the other hand, hockey.
Yesterday i was following Oskarshamn IK against Redhawks through their website.
I was really nervous after the defeat against Rögle in the Skåne-derby last wednesday. Also it was Lasse Pirjtäs first game in 10 months after his surgery.
Well, to keep it short..we made the first goal...but after that the penalties just kept coming in. A complete disaster, 4-2 after the first two periods. Even i began to despair...Then it all happened...we came out as a completely new team.....4-3 and 4-4 followed. I spoke to Madde (fellow Redhawks-supporter) on MSN during the game, and while totally into it i said that if Lasse scored ,or in some way won the game for us, then i would buy his replica-shirt...with name and all.
And as soon as i hade written that; Lasse stole the puck, passed it to Mikko Eloranta who sent it to Ville Nieminen who scored !!!!!!!!!!!
So now a replicaorder have been sent ;)

If you want to follow what happened then watch the last two pages of the gamethread on Redhawks Support forum here as i explain it more (in swedish) there.

Trond Kirkvaag

...does an awsome imitation of the former weatherman Vidar Theisen on norwegian televisionchannel NRK.



If you are norweigian and lived there in the late 70`s and up to 90`s you just gotta love this !
I confess, that i laughed so hard i almost cried... :)


Trond Kirkvaag, a legend that will live on forever.

Whining a bit (do not worry, it will pass)

Everything seems to go against me for the time being, which takes a lot (if not even allmost all) of my energy.

One strange thing i have noticed. If things like this would have happened a couple of years ago i would have been totally devastated. Now i just feel kind of sad about it all, and wish it all away.
Is this a good development? Does it mean that i have finally learned to cope with misery, does it mean that i have given up, does it mean that i have gone cold? I really do not know......

Funny stuff

Some links that i find amusing. Do we find the same things amusing?
Please comment!

http://www.catsthatlooklikehitler.com/cgi-bin/seigmiaow.pl

http://www.stuffmagazine.com/articles/index.aspx?id=1414

http://www.cthulhu.org/

no news yet

Been away the last days..and have been working (and not to forget that good old laziness of mine)......excuses, excuses, excuses..well well well.

Short (and not very sweet).

But, just working this week, after that i have 3 weeks off.
Going home...more about this later when everything is properly arranged :)

Decided to get kind of serious with this blogg, after all. But it will not be the usual run-of-the-mill blogg where i tell abut everything that happens in my life, because am sure that it would bore your asses off.
I recently read a book about H.P. Lovecraft....it was written by some french guy whose name i cannot remember. Well, anyway, he wrote that if one should read his (Lovecrafts, not the frenchman, silly;) ) diary, it would say "nothing much happens" most of the time. Just like my life.

So, where does this leave me then ? It means that i will try do deliver snippets of curious information along the way, while also sometimes break in with some real-life obeservations, sarcasms and ironies (Right spelling? Who cares? You understand what i mean;) ) that in many ways seems to be my natural way of communication, that i hope someone will find at least a little bit amusing/interesting/thought-provoking.

You will see, oh yes, you will see alright.

Btw, here is the book i was refering to earlier. Interesting reading indeed:

"Against the World, Against Life"
by Michel Houellebecq (i told you about the name !!!)

Records of 2007.

This is what i have been listening and/or bought in 2007:

• Anna Ternheim: Lovers Dream & more music for psychic lovers
• 108: A New Beat from a Dead Heart
• H.P. Lovecraft Historical Society: A Very Scary Solstice
• Mayhem: Ordo ab Chao
• Onslaught: Killing Peace
• H.P. Lovecraft Historical Society: An Even Scarier Solstice
• Amber Asylum: Still Point
• Puissance: Grace of God
• Call of Cthulhu soundtrack
• Summoning: Oath Bound

Yet another quote

By whom i do not care to mention...since it is of no importance.

"When night falls

she cloaks the world

in impenetrable darkness.

A chill rises

from the soil

and contaminates the air

suddenly...life has new meaning."

So, there you go !

of course

The last weekend of january:

- UIK plays an indoor football-cup in Væxjø.
- Floorhockey-cup in Umeå.
- Invited to Østersund for a birthdayparty.

Why must everything happen at the same time ?

Quote of the day:

Today it is swedish by one of the goalies in IBK Dalen, Sara Svensson

"Sophia: Hörde något om att det var "hjärta och lunga" på träningen i onsdags. Vad innebär det?
Sara:Det innebär att Örjan och Lingon kan stå och titta på medan vi springer skiten ur oss…"

I just can say this: "i know the feeling".

And i have a wicked sense of humour ;)

Today is the day

Merry x-mas/Yule/Solstice etc etc to all of you.

I will spend the day watching movies, eating and drinking.

So, have a happy holiday :)